My goodness it has been a while and I can’t tell you how glad and almost relieved I am to finally see you again. The past year has been hectic yet boring at the same time and I have spent so much of it trying to figure out my purpose in life, as existential as that sounds. Unfortunately, I can’t say that I have found it and to be honest I don’t know if I ever truly will, but I have grown to accept this and maybe it is better this way. There have been multiple quarter-life crisis’, as I have mentioned many times before due to my working life but I have tried to stop worrying over the ‘big picture’ and to just start creating a life that I am truly happy with. I have needed time to mourn over my lost dreams and to start creating new ones.
That is the part where you come in, January. You see, I think we are very alike, you and I.
We are the wild ones that dare to believe in the possibility of everything.
The ones sparkling with positivity as the brightest stars in the sky. We are the ones who don’t take no for an answer and won’t stop until we have what we want.
We are the creators, the dreamers and the doers.
Over the past few months I have found my new ‘dream’, my new ‘ideal life’ and it’s almost like a shadow that follows me around but it shines so clear like a reflection. I have always known that having a ‘normal life’ and a ‘normal job’ would never satisfy the dreamer in me. From a young age I dreamed impossible dreams and although they haven’t come true, I haven’t stopped dreaming for a better life. I knew when I got myself my first office job that it wasn’t the life I wanted, it would just keep me content until I discovered what I really wanted. I am so relieved and excited that I am at the point where I know for sure. I just have to dabble in everything to know what I am good at, what I truly enjoy and how to be successful in it.
Being stuck in another dead ended, boring office job has made me angry, more so than I think I have ever felt. Angry that these corporation jobs only see you as a number, but I am more than the potential that they fail to see in me. My life is worth more than the wasted hours being stuck in a job like this. I want more than the standardised life, more than what society has been expecting for years. I want more than to sell my soul to a company and conforming to these set rules formed by them. I am worth more than selling my time and only being allowed 20 days holiday a year. We are all worth so much more than that but only the minority see it. I want to be part of the ‘modern life’, where we are free.
Free to be who we want, free to live and work from anywhere in the world and free to do what we love, to build a happy and fulfilled life.
Our world is changing; our technology is expanding, so why aren’t society’s expectations changing too? We live in a time where we can finally break free from the shackles of employment and to create our own reality. I won’t stop trying until I am truly free.
So although I may already be spreading myself thin with a new full time job (I changed in October), a side job, a blog to keep running and a side project to start up my new dream career, I am determined to make 2018 the year that I changed my life.
Mark my words and hold me accountable, January. I am on my way to happiness.